Under Deck Sailing Yacht star Dani Soares recently welcomed a baby girl named Lilly Rose.
And on Wednesday, the 33-year-old opened up about how difficult her motherhood journey has been so far.
The Brazilian-born yachtie is now permanently based in Sydney, Australia, but her family still lives in Brazil, which has left her with little support since Lilly’s birth.
Hard times: Under Deck Sailing Yacht star Dani Soares recently welcomed a baby girl named Lilly Rose. And on Wednesday, the 33-year-old explained how difficult her motherhood journey has been so far.
“I’m tired, it’s not easy, but seeing her little face is worth it,” she said on Instagram.
“It’s hard from the start,” she continued. “We don’t share how hard it is, we just see perfect photos on Instagram and it was really, really hard for the first two weeks of breastfeeding and being alone.
“I’m terrible at asking for help because for the first 11 years I was mostly on my own and made my own decisions, but you need help.
“You need as much help as you can and it’s been really tough, but I’m getting smiles now so it’s all worth it.”
“It’s been tough from the start,” she says. “We don’t share how hard it is, we just see perfect photos on Instagram and it’s been really, really hard for the first two weeks.”
Dani said the best advice she can give to other single moms is to make sure you have friends and family around, and a great support system.
Unfortunately for the Bravo star, she was unable to bring her own mother from Brazil to help with the baby due to coronavirus restrictions and high quarantine costs.
Dani is also unable to take advantage of paid maternity leave in Australia as she has been in Australia for less than a year, forcing her to live off her savings.
“I have to go back to work next month and leave Lilly in daycare, so sad,” she said.
Alone: Unfortunately for the Bravo star, she couldn’t bring her own mother from Brazil to help with the baby due to coronavirus restrictions and high quarantine costs
As she prepares to return to her beautician job, Dani has also studied part-time to become a nurse, what she calls her “dream job”.
She also added that she had no plans to leave Australia and would not want to live anywhere else.
“I am so happy to be here and I would not leave this country for any reason. It’s the best country for me and my daughter one hundred percent. ‘
“I have to go back to work next month”: Dani also cannot take paid maternity leave in Australia as she has been in Australia for less than a year
Lilly’s father is rumored to be Jean-Luc Cerza-Lanaux, co-star of the sailing yacht under Dani’s deck, who is based in North Carolina when not working on yachts.
Last week Dani told People magazine that she currently has no relationship with Lilly’s father.
She said she “won’t make anyone do anything” with regards to Lilly Rose, although she “absolutely” is fine to let the dad into her life if he’s up for it.
Who is your daddy? Fans speculated that his co-star Jean-Luc ‘JL’ Cerza-Lanaux could be the father, and Andy Cohen even asked him if he was the father during the reunion.
So far, she has refused to share the identity of the father, despite widespread speculation that it is JL’s baby.
“He thinks it’s not his child, he doesn’t want anything to do with it,” she said of the unnamed man.
Now Dani says she tries to keep things as cordial as possible between her and her daughter’s father.
Above the scrum: “I’m not going to criticize anyone because my daughter is going to see everything I say, everything I do and I don’t want her to see things come and go on social networks or things being said in a moment of anger, ‘Dani said
“I’m not going to criticize anyone because my daughter is going to see everything I say, everything I do and I don’t want her to see things coming and going on social media or things that are happening. say in a moment of anger, ”she told People.
“Like I said, the door is always open, but you have to do more than just talk. You really have to have action, to do action, ”she continued.
“The father was part of it, I didn’t do it alone. So if he wants to be part of his life obviously [he can]. But he must do more than talk.
Awaiting News: JL said he wants to be ‘100% involved’ if Lilly Rose is his daughter in a recent Instagram post, although he hasn’t done a paternity test yet
Although JL has not confirmed that he is the baby’s father, he did share in a recent Instagram post that he wanted to “clean the air.”
“As others set off in pursuit of their 15 minutes of fame, I work on a yacht in Central America and my heart breaks over having to hear about the baby’s birth on social media and read headlines. like “Dani Soares says her baby’s father wants nothing to do with this,” he wrote.
“All I can say is if it’s mine, I want to be 100% involved.”
He added that he grew up with parents who weren’t together and “would not wish that on any child.”
Must Wait: In a follow-up late last week, he explained that he could not yet visit Dani and Lilly Rose to take the paternity test because Australia’s borders are closed due to Covid-19
“I’m not looking for a pity party. I just want everyone to know how good I am about it, especially the haters who are so sure I neglect my responsibility. No one wants to know more than me if this is my little girl! ‘ he added.
In a follow-up article, JL said he was looking to take a paternity test with Dani and was unable to visit or visit him due to Covid-19 travel restrictions in Australia.
“No Australia isn’t open yet or I would be gone already, so those of you who say ‘go’ don’t have to know,” he explained. “We are really on different continents, so easier said than done.”
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