Jesse Lingard credited his brother Lou, Ole Gunnar Solskjaer Bruno Fernandes and his former West Ham teammates for helping save his career.
In a candid interview with The Players Tribune, the Manchester United midfielder revealed how injuries and loss of form made him question his future in the game.
The 28-year-old, now back in favor of Manchester United and England, praised others, including West Ham boss David Moyes, for the roles they have played in his return to the top.
Lingard said his problems started when he injured his groin shortly after playing for England in the 2018 World Cup.
“From that point on, I couldn’t go back to where I was. I was struggling both mentally and physically, ”he said.
“My family kept coming to the games, but they couldn’t even watch me. They were like, ‘It’s not you. It’s not your aura. ‘ The games passed me as if I wasn’t there. Like a ghost.
“I love football. Love it to death. But there were times when I was like, ‘I can’t do this anymore’.
Lingard said his brother Lou stood out during the lockdown and convinced him that a loan to Old Trafford could be the answer.
“During this period of my life he really stepped up his efforts. Lou never deregistered me,” he said.
“It’s a story about me, but actually it’s about my brother Lou. Without him, I wouldn’t be where I am today. No chance. “
Lingard has finally spoken to United boss Solskjaer about his personal issues.
“It was halfway through last season. Ole wanted me to stay at United and help the team last January, but for my own sake he understood I had to go. I needed to play regular football again. I needed a new environment.
“I finally found the courage to tell Ole and the guys at United about everything I was going through. It was not an easy thing to do, but Ole is not just a manager, he is a friend. “I’ve known him for ages. He started me off on the reserve a long time ago. He always told me, ‘Whatever you need, knock on my door.’
“When I finally told her about everything that was going on, her response was, ‘I wish you’d come see me sooner’.”
Lingard also cites his loan to West Ham as a big part of his recovery after his new teammates insisted he didn’t retreat to his phone or listen to music when he was in and around. the team.
“It was like that all over West Ham, correct conversations about everything,” he said. “No phone, no social networks. More than mm-hmm.
“If we had dinner at the hotel, we would stay there for hours chatting. It has helped us bond as a team, and personally it has helped me a lot. “
Lingard was nominated for Premier League Player of the Month in February and March and finally won the award in April.
“I wrestled with Lou right away. It only happened when I told my family and heard how emotional they were. Then I was like, wow, that’s big, ”he said.
“After that, Bruno Fernandes called me the ‘best player in the Premier League’ in an interview with United… me! Can you believe this? It comes from Bruno!
“I have a lot of love for Bruno. He left me messages of support throughout my loan. Getting this recognition from someone at his level was just amazing.
“When I came back to United I felt like a different person. I am more mature, more confident. I take more responsibility.
“To be fair, I have to thank Moyes and the guys at West Ham for that. Well done for all the boys. “